Random

So this is a draft post from before the last one that I never finished, but it basically works now too:

"I am not in the world's best mood today. Hence the change in the blog's colors. Maybe it's the crappy weather.

I'll post about WT some other time, I don't feel like getting my notebook. Ugh, I still have to finish writing sheets this weekend too. Great...

I finally got a facebook this Monday. I'm already regretting it. Why did I not have one previously? I didn't need one, I prefered email, they were pointless, and everyone else had them. All of those things remain true, even after getting one. I only got one to see everyone's pictures form work tour, and maybe reconnect with old friends in Minnesota. It was a bad choice. Picture-wise, I'm just reminded of how un-photogenic I am. Friend-wise? My best friend  is "in a relationship" as of yesterday,"

Alright, so its actually fairly nice out today. I am in a bad mood though. I keep snapping at everyone. 

Before I go on about today, I'm going to finish my train of thought about facebook.  About my best friend being in a relationship: we were always super close, and I love my friend, but she's a super genius. No joke, she's been doing college level math for a year already. But because of that, she's always been ahead of me in everything. Which always got irritating and I ignored it. And then i moved away and it still bugs me that all of my friends up there are ahead of me, because their district is a year ahead. Which, at least, makes me look super smart here. But it's just kind of stirring up old issues that should be left buried, you know? 

Back to today. I slept in, which was great. Since about 12:30 I've been outside painting a trellis, and some giant concrete planters, and then faux painting the planters to look old with my mother and one of my sisters.  It was fun, sort of. The planters look AMAZING. 

But while I was working on the planters, Tiery texted my asking if I wanted to walk to Noodles, & co. I got the text half an hour later, when I finished. I asked her if they had left yet and she said she wasn't going because something came up. I hate it when people give sketchy answers. And Tiery usually says she's babysitting or something (whether it's true or not) so I figured it wasn't true. Not a big deal, really, because I do the same thing if I don't feel like doing something. So I texted her and another friend half an hour later to see if they wanted to come over tonight and watch a movie. Tiery responded, again, that something had come up. Whatever, again, not a big deal. But then I go on facebook, and she had some post about hanging out with Laurey tonight. Really? Could she at least have the decency not to write about it?

I just need to get out of this place. I'm going insane. The people, the drama, the...just everything! This summer will be a blessing, but I'm dying to get to college and be on my own, able to do what I want, and to actually be working towards something, for once! I'm probably building it up to be way better than it is, but i don't care. I'm sick of this place.

Oh, that's another thing. About guys. I wish I could just know, right now, if I'm ever going to fall in love with someone and get married or whatever. Because if that is never going to happen, I could plan my life completely differently. Whatever, I don't feel like getting into it right now.

Another, very random, thing: I'm sick of this whole "it doesn't matter what size you are" crap. Not saying we should bully people because of weight, I have some good friends that have major weight issues, but I still love them. But, first off, this is America, and I unfortunately looks do matter. Secondly, why should we tell obese people, "oh, it's okay to be fat, size doesn't matter!" Reality check: it's not okay to be fat, it's suicide! Maybe if we said (nicely, of course) "It's not okay to be fat, let us help you loose weight" we could actually help people, instead of prolonging this "epidemic" of bad choices!